Monthly Archives: December 2012

How Can I not Cry today?

Having to travel today distracted me. I could watch the TV from a distance – literally and figuratively – while I walked through security and boarded my flight.

But I had a layover. I tried to do emails and distract myself in other ways while murmuring simple prayers for these families in CT. I had to stop and sit.

I grieve for and with the parents who said goodbye for the last time at the bus stop; who sang their last lullaby last night; who ruffled the hair one last time; who gave a final kiss on a forehead…

It made me think of those parents around the world who did the same thing yesterday. Who didn’t know a marketplace bomb would shatter their world; who didn’t expect a trip to the water pump would result in a kidnapping; who will never see their children again.

Last night as colleagues and I drove to dinner we talked about pastoring amidst crisis and tragedy, and then we turned on the news today.

I sit in this airport lounge and wonder how can I not grieve and cry in the midst of the pain in this world. I am beyond trying to understand and explain why this happens… It reminds me of this book I’m reading in which a Jewish child who survives WWII in Europe continually asks people close to her, “Is there a plan in all of this?” She asks other questions, which people ask in times of tragedy.

Seeking solace ad prayer through music I stumbled across this song by Güngör. It speaks of pain and redemption. I don’t think it is perfect, and I don’t want people to think they need to rush through pain to redemption. However, it points to hope, and it reminds me that death and tragedy are never the ends of the story.

In short, this song helped me to pray, as did a prayer I heard a few weeks ago: “the pain may not have an end at this time, yet it will have an end in time.”

Here is a link to watch the song on youtube:
Beautiful Things by Güngör

Here are the lyrics:
With all this pain
I wonder if I’ll ever find my way
I wonder if my life could really change at all
All this earth
Could all that is lost ever be found
Could a garden come up from this ground at all

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

All around
Hope is springing up from this old ground
Out of chaos life is being found in You

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new
You are making me new

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of the dust
You make beautiful things
You make beautiful things out of us

You make me new, You are making me new
You make me new, You are making me new

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Photo of the Week – Cousins

Ceara and Caleb had a great opportunity to see their cousins recently. Caleb’s look may come from being overwhelmed by three older girls for three days 🙂

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Photo(s) of the Week – Christmas Tree and Cotton Candy

This week will hopefully make up for the fact that I haven’t posted the Photo of the Week consistently this past month.

Caleb had his first experience with cotton candy this past weekend – below are two photos depicting that event.

Ceara could hardly contain her excitement about getting a Christmas tree this year – and below hopefully these capture the joy and excitement.

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